Hi T Campbell. I am not a bookkeeper or any variation thereof. I like words, both cross and the other varieties. But right now I'm trying to not fall apart. Thanks for your writings and comics. I loved faaans, and that is why I googled T Campbell tonight. I met you once at a con and got some faans comics and that was great. I could maybe use a hopeful comment because I'm trapped in a miasma of memories right now. Thank you for your writings.
Dunno! I usually end up burbling for a lot longer than necessary when I talk about the stuff I like, but talking about it TO the people who make it, that's something else again.
I don't know much about your specific situation, but I'll do my best to be of general help. I believe that life is meant to be enjoyed. Whether it's evolution or some more divine force that supplies that "intent," we are at our best when we seek out the joy in life, and that's a principle that can help us out even in the worst circumstances. I know people whose lives have proven that point.
You say you're trapped in a miasma of memories--I don't know if those are good memories of something that's gone or bad memories that haunt. In either case, those are natural things to feel, but any positive step you'll take, even one simple action, can be a step to constructing a new present. Don't get overwhelmed by how far the distance between you and happiness may seem: go ahead and take that one step. It could be a step toward closure if your past informs your current circumstance. Or it could be a step to something new--some new interest or long-considered dream.
A "step" is an imprecise unit of measure, but I think it should be something you can accomplish in a single sitting, so that you can begin with confidence that it can be seen through. If we're talking about a new interest, it could be watching a single video, if it's something you've been thinking of for a while, then it could be as simple as taking the first class in an online course or making a list of places where you can get hands-on experience. The exact nature of the step should be yours to define; what's important is that it should point in the direction of your desires.
And if you're too depressed right now to remember what those are, then use those past memories to remind you of the things you USED to want. Novelty itself is a huge help in jarring one out of the burden of the past. Someone I know is currently caring for a new kitten who needs feeding every two hours; her life has been far from perfect, but I guarantee you she doesn't have time to mull on the traumas of her past while she's dealing with that!
One more note: don't get hung up on specifics. For me, Faans.com represents a case of letting go of an old dream and trying to find the dream BEHIND the dream. I wanted it to become a 120-issue comic-book series--that was never going to happen in the marketplace that I entered, and when I realized that, it took me a while to get over it. I'd had similar love relationships where I couldn't envision happiness without the girl or woman who was then my fixation. But the things I *really* wanted were more fundamental: a chance to build stories and entertain people, a chance to build meaningful connections, love, and friendship. Taking Fans online meant leaving some of my old dream behind, but it's a move I've never regretted.
Hi T Campbell. I am not a bookkeeper or any variation thereof. I like words, both cross and the other varieties. But right now I'm trying to not fall apart. Thanks for your writings and comics. I loved faaans, and that is why I googled T Campbell tonight. I met you once at a con and got some faans comics and that was great. I could maybe use a hopeful comment because I'm trapped in a miasma of memories right now. Thank you for your writings.
also why is it so stupid hard to just say 5 words on the internet about liking a thing!?
Dunno! I usually end up burbling for a lot longer than necessary when I talk about the stuff I like, but talking about it TO the people who make it, that's something else again.
I don't know much about your specific situation, but I'll do my best to be of general help. I believe that life is meant to be enjoyed. Whether it's evolution or some more divine force that supplies that "intent," we are at our best when we seek out the joy in life, and that's a principle that can help us out even in the worst circumstances. I know people whose lives have proven that point.
You say you're trapped in a miasma of memories--I don't know if those are good memories of something that's gone or bad memories that haunt. In either case, those are natural things to feel, but any positive step you'll take, even one simple action, can be a step to constructing a new present. Don't get overwhelmed by how far the distance between you and happiness may seem: go ahead and take that one step. It could be a step toward closure if your past informs your current circumstance. Or it could be a step to something new--some new interest or long-considered dream.
A "step" is an imprecise unit of measure, but I think it should be something you can accomplish in a single sitting, so that you can begin with confidence that it can be seen through. If we're talking about a new interest, it could be watching a single video, if it's something you've been thinking of for a while, then it could be as simple as taking the first class in an online course or making a list of places where you can get hands-on experience. The exact nature of the step should be yours to define; what's important is that it should point in the direction of your desires.
And if you're too depressed right now to remember what those are, then use those past memories to remind you of the things you USED to want. Novelty itself is a huge help in jarring one out of the burden of the past. Someone I know is currently caring for a new kitten who needs feeding every two hours; her life has been far from perfect, but I guarantee you she doesn't have time to mull on the traumas of her past while she's dealing with that!
One more note: don't get hung up on specifics. For me, Faans.com represents a case of letting go of an old dream and trying to find the dream BEHIND the dream. I wanted it to become a 120-issue comic-book series--that was never going to happen in the marketplace that I entered, and when I realized that, it took me a while to get over it. I'd had similar love relationships where I couldn't envision happiness without the girl or woman who was then my fixation. But the things I *really* wanted were more fundamental: a chance to build stories and entertain people, a chance to build meaningful connections, love, and friendship. Taking Fans online meant leaving some of my old dream behind, but it's a move I've never regretted.